Fatherhood

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that the love you develop to an infant, it happens quite quickly. Not necessarily immediately, I don't know, different people have different experiences, but it took me a little bit. But then once it hit, it just hit like kick of a horse. And I love that it's also just such a universal experience. That you can be the most successful person in the world. You can be the poorest person in the world. You can be somewhere in the middle. And we share this experience that being a parent, for most of them, turns out to be the most important thing in their life. — But you know, it is really nice to do that kind of experience with the right partner. But I think because I'm such an empath, the cost of having the wrong partner is high for me. But then I also like realized, man, I have a friend of mine who's divorced happily and he still loves the shit out of his kids. And it's still beautiful. It's a mess, but there's all of that love is still there

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and it's, you know, you just have to make it work. It's just that, I don't know, that kind of like divorce would destroy me. — You should listen to The School of Life. He has this great bit on YouTube. You'll marry the wrong person. If you accept upfront that you will marry the wrong person, that every potential person you can marry is gonna be the wrong person on some dimension. They're gonna annoy you. They're gonna be not what you hoped in certain dimensions. The romantic ideal that everything is just perfect all the time is not very conducive to the reality of hitching up and get making babies. Because I think as you just accounted, even when it turns to shit, I find that most of the people I personally know where things have fallen apart and have turned to shit, never in a million years would they go like, "I regret it." "I would rather, my children did not exist because a relationship turned sour."

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I mean, I think you should try very hard. And I think this is also one of those things where we didn't fully understand those fences. And when we pulled them up and celebrated how easy it is to get divorced, for example, that that wasn't gonna have some negative consequences. I'm not saying you shouldn't have divorces. I'm not saying return to times past. I'm saying though that civilization over thousands of years developed certain technologies for ensuring the continuation of its own institutions and its own life that perhaps we didn't fully appreciate. I mean, again, this is something Jordan Peterson and others are far more articulate to speak about, and that I've learned a lot to just analyze my own situation. Why is it that this incredible burden, it is to be responsible for someone else's life that you brought into this world is also the most rewarding part of existence? That's just curious. Before I heard Peterson articulate the value of taking on the greatest burden you know how to carry,

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I always thought about burdens as a negative things. Why would I want the burden of a child? I might screw it up. I might be a bad parent. They might have bad... all this stuff, right? All the reasons why you shouldn't. And so few voices articulating why you should. — Yeah, but there I should also add on top of that thing you mentioned currently, perhaps in the west, the matchmaking process is broken. Is broken and technology made it worse. Yeah, it's fascinating. This whole thing that that hasn't been solved. So hiring great teams, that's probably been solved the best out of matchmaking. Finding great people to hire. Second, finding great friends. That's like, that's also hasn't been solved. — And it's breaking down. — It's breaking down. And third is matchmaking for like relationships. That's like the worst. And in fact, technology made it even worse. It's fascinating. — It is. It's a great example again of how all the greatest intentions

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still led us straight to hell. I really enjoyed Louis Perry's analysis of the sexual revolution not being an unqualified good, which was something I hadn't thought about at all before she articulated it. That of course women should be able to have freedom and self determination and abortions and all of these things. And Louise Perry is not arguing against that either, of course. But there are second order facts that we don't appreciate at the time and we may not have ready-made solutions for. And that's just interesting. You make life better in a million different ways and somehow we end up more miserable. Why is that? Why is it that humans find meaning in hardship? And I think some of that is that it's a difficult question to answers through science. And again, Peterson articulates well